1/1/06 01:54 am
i havent done this in a while and im not goin to anymore i just have on last thing to say read please or my thoughts would be useless
this is so long no one going to read it most likely but i have to rant now
READ THIS FUCKERS
im fuckin pissed and ethan isnt here so i cant take it out on him like i uasually do because thats the type of fucking prick i am and dont think im not a prick take a look at the list of people ive hurt the last year you all know who theyare so i dont fucking feel the need to fucking mention them right fuck ing now and god knows there going to be a hell of alot more you most likely will be on of them because i hurt those who i care about the person i care the most about is ethan and i hurt him every fucking day so dont think you are safe because this year is different im not a pimp im not a clown i am matt i no longer will degrade myself to make others laugh anyway maybe its the nurmorous pills ive taken or the large quantity of lioquor i have consumed but im intererly paranoids right now if you care for someone tell them damnit children come on lifes fucking short and i doubt im going to be around much longer anyways considering the habits i have eating and living im not healthy ok not in the mind or in the body and for hell sure not in the soul i really have no idea were all this shit is comin from but what ever dont act a way to make others happy dont tell someone somthing to make them happy dont do something to make others happy live for yourselfs ok god bless it be nice and shit but dont do things just because your lonely and confused dont fall for someone just because they like you dont live like i have in thwe past ok no one worry im not killing myself or anything im just cleansing myself of all the thoughts ive been holding back god be true to yourselfs and others ok i know thats cliche but its true live life long enough and you figure that out
bye